Reviewing the Restricted.

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I had unfollowed and restricted all of the people that were bugging me on dreaded social media, sat on the sofa getting angrier, holding back the tears, I typed out a text very quickly signed with an angry-faced emoji to my friend telling her all about it.

The reply I received not only made me smile it was filled with wisdom and sent a very well known and irritating song spinning around my mind, “If I knew were coming I’d of baked a cake, baked a cake, If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake!”

A situation with some other friends (and use the term loosely) had been ongoing and once again something had happened to provoke negativity. I was feeling hurt, angry bitter, let down and rejected, the words to my dear friend were ” I wish God would just take it away, I don’t like feeling this way.”

Her response was spot on. Firstly, I needed to repent for any negative feelings toward the people involved then, rebuke satan’s lies in the name of Jesus, accept God’s forgiveness, pray for the people involved and ask that God open their eyes, thank God that I am walking in freedom and receive His perfect peace, she described it as a cake recipe! (Hence the well-known, irritating song!)

My next move was to get off the sofa and go into my room, close the door behind me and to pray, my words were:

Father, please forgive me for negativity towards these people, I’m sorry but my heart feels heavy and burdened, I’m tired of their attitudes, and I’m sad that I’ve been pushed away, I’m hurt that they no longer want me, I’m surplus to requirements and they are getting on with life without me, with their ‘elite group’ or at least that’s how I see it.

Lord, I know these are lies from satan and you came so that I may have peace, I rebuke these ill feelings in Jesus name, I feel so hurt, please help me, I don’t want this burdensome heavy heart, I want your perfect peace, I want to be filled with joy, love and kindness, please release me from this weight, what they do has no bearing on my actions, nor does it dictate who I am in your eyes, I know that you love me for who you made me, you have a plan for me that has nothing to do with this nonsense….

….Then BANG … It came to me….

You can’t use me with this heavy burdened heart, can you? You’re teaching me, aren’t you? Teaching me to overcome things, love people that are difficult, see beyond my own opinion,  love without rival, teaching me to learn how to see other people beyond their actions!

Proverbs 17:17 in the NLT says: A Friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in the time of need.

Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary: 17. No change of outward circumstances should abate our affection for our friends or relatives. But no friend, except Christ, deserves unlimited confidence. In Him, this text did receive and still receives its most glorious fulfilment

So, in a nutshell, my reaction to my friend’s actions is completely my choice, the fact that I’d gone on to social media and restricted all of the people that made me feel this way was ridiculous, I have a choice!

I am most happy when I’m being kind, considerate and caring, giving encouragement, kind words and loving people is what I do best. But, here I was bittering and hardening my own heart, not to mention anything else I was worn out, it’s hard work being that angry! I remember reading somewhere that negative energy makes you ill and that is just how I felt.

Our wonderful God wants me to love people despite how they make me feel, Jesus had to contend with much more than I do, how must he have felt when Peter denied Him, or when he asked the disciples to stay awake and pray and they fell to sleep?

What if I get treated like a doormat God?

Psalm 28:3 Says– Do not drag me away with the wicked–with those who do evil–those who speak friendly words to their neighbours while planning evil in their hearts.

Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary 28:1-5 David is very earnest in prayer.Observe his faith in prayer; God is my rock, on whom I build my hope. Believers should not rest till they have received some token that their prayers are heard. He prays that he may not be numbered with the wicked. Save me from being entangled in the snares they have laid for me. Save me from being infected with their sins, and from doing as they do. Lord, never leave me to use such arts of deceit and treachery for my safety, as they use for my ruin.

And there it was, a prayer for me to pray to the Lord our God for help and protection in my time of need, He will fight my battles, I don’t need to worry how they may treat me, all I need to do is be the person I enjoy being, the person that my beautiful Father made me to be, the person that spreads light, love and laughter without effort, the one that enjoys blessing and loving others, the person that brings great glory to the name of God our Father, Jesus His son and the Holy Spirit.

In conclusion, when satan comes knocking on the door and starts to whisper his lies into your mind remember to sing “If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake, baked a cake, If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake!” smile then follow these simple steps:

  1. Repent for any bad feelings.
  2. Rebuke the lies of satan in Jesus name.
  3. Accept forgiveness from God.
  4. Pray for the people you’re angry at.
  5. Thank God for His Perfect Peace.

 

 

 

I have all that I need.

I love this scripture, when my husband and I were in the early days of our walk with Jesus, this was a portion of scripture that we studied at a small group, it really got stuck in our minds. They are words that we held on to whilst developing and growing in trust for God, in the times we questioned God we reverted back to this scripture, we have all that we need.

No matter how dark a day may seem, when we actually think about what we need, it soon becomes apparent that we have it all. Is your heart beating? Yes. Are we still breathing? Yes. Do we have food, water, shelter? Yes. Even if we lost all of our material things we can still live on what we have.

Trusting God is a choice and if we choose to take these words literally and trust God we will have much more. He will work for us, with what we have, where we are at. We just have to trust him.

Think about it, what is it we actually, really and truly need? There are probably many things that we want, but there is a huge difference between needing and wanting. A need is a vital source, and want is a desire. And if we are prepared to live with all that we need and trust God he will give us many things that we want.

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you your heart’s desires Psalm 37:4.

Thank You God that You are all that we need, that You are our shelter and refuge all of the time despite us running to You only when we are in need, forgive us God for only ever coming to you in times of darkness, we love You God and praise Your wonderful ways.

Open Doors

How do we know when or if to walk through a door of opportunity?


How do we know when or if to walk through a door of opportunity?

When I first came to know Jesus I had many plans, mainly for myself I admit, I was going to build a huge marketing agency and earn lots of money, well it wasn’t quite that shallow but all the same I had BIG plans.

I was stopped completely in my tracks by the Lord and I entered a period of stillness, at the time I thought this was laziness, all of my creative faculties started to shut down and I found that I couldn’t think, all I could do was turn to the word God and discover.

I soon started to discover Who I was, Why I was here, and What I needed to do, BUT, I had no idea how that fitted into my previous plans. So there I was, still wandering in the wilderness with no direction, no inspiration and no creativity.

I wasn’t listening! God asked me to start to delve into my old plans and compare them to the discoveries I had made about WHO He said I was, WHY I was here and WHAT I was sent to do.

I soon discovered a pattern, a very unique pattern. It was unique because this pattern was displayed in all I had done my whole life, from a tender age of nursery school right up to this present point in my life. Those business plans I had were NOT about making myself money, they were about helping others to achieve their goals, from the customers I served to the staff I had planned to employ, each element was about other people and how I could help them to achieve what they wanted.

Proverbs 16:9, tells us that In our hearts we plan our course, but the Lord establishes the steps.

No wonder there was a pattern, it wasn’t the actual industry, job, or physical task that would be my calling, it’s what that physical thing would enable me to do in the name of Jesus. I was sent to encourage, inspire and teach people that through Christ we can achieve all things!

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.- Proverbs 37:4

Once I discovered this I soon started to recognise doors that began to open, not just in my business but at home, in my marriage, in my husband’s business, at church, with my friends, even this blog. I just had to be courageous enough to step out and say what I knew God wanted me to say or do what He wanted me to do.We just have to be bold enough and brave enough to walk through that open door.

Receiving this courage comes from renewing our minds with His Word, it’s there to give us confidence that in Him all things are possible. He tells us in John 10:10 I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. He doesn’t want us to be miserable!

1 Corinthians 16:9 because a great door for effective work has opened to me, and there are many who oppose me.

The words above from Paul tell us that it won’t be a smooth ride, but irrespective of the opposition he faced, he continued to move on, continued to walk with God and live out what he knew in confidence the Lord wanted him to do.

Since these revelations, I’ve been so much more comfortable in my life with making decisions, and when I make those that are aligned with God’s will he confirms I’m on the right track with His wonderful favour, I feel peaceful and joyful inside and I have a consistent smile on my face. Life is just easier with God’s word in it. Life is just easier with God in it!

My prayer today is that anyone that may be struggling with their calling in life, or recognising God’s open doors, that they feel the spirit of God fall upon them to inspire action.

I pray, Father that each and every person that is questioning a decision right now, that they feel your presence, they hear your voice and you give them courage and confidence in you and your word.

I ask you, Father, to reveal to them their calling in life, give them desires in their hearts that won’t let go until they act upon them, and when they do Lord I ask for fulfilment, comfort and peace to outpour into their spirit.

Lord I pray that they seek your will and glorify your name by living a life filled with abundant joy.

In Jesus name, Amen.

 

 

 

 

You can’t earn it.


“Long ago the LORD said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love, I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

When I became a Christian an inner transformation started to take place, I knew that I fell short of the character God wanted me to have, I knew I needed to be a better person, turn my back on my old life and walk courageously into my new one.

But how?

How could I be a better person? He knew I’d tried, I was at all of the church meetings, I was the first to volunteer my time, I worked for charities in my ‘spare’ time, I donated my money, I blessed people with things they might need, why was I still not changing from within?

I’d get frustrated then and I would give up on myself. After a bad day, I’d turn to alcohol, open a bottle of wine whilst cooking dinner, which would quite often turn into 2 bottles, think over all of the naff things that had happened through the day, pity myself and beat myself up. Then, this would turn into anger which caused friction in my marriage, because I was frustrated with myself I’d be frustrated with my husband and kids too, and there it was a nice big destructive cycle.

Along comes the guilt and I wouldn’t be able to sleep, I’d be writing destructive things about myself in my journal, I’d be telling myself how horrible I was, and the next day I’d be back to the feet of Jesus on my knees the next day asking why?

After a while, once I was prepared to listen, He started to reveal to me why this was, in my heart I heard, “you can NOT earn my love, it’s a gift, you must accept it.

Look what it says here, God tells us I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love, I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

God already HAS given us His love, we didn’t DO anything for it He just DOES. No matter how hard I try, no matter what good works I do, I can not earn His love.

It doesn’t work like it does in the world, you meet someone and fall a little bit in love with them and as the days, weeks, months and years go by you fall deeper and deeper. No, not with God, He loved us before we were born.

No matter how rubbish I feel about me, He loves me, That’s ace! His grace is covering me, and that helps me to live aligned with His will.

Now I know this I’m so joyful, joyful because I have God in my life, I don’t falter because I’m too joyful, I’ve no need to dislike myself in the way that I used to, not only does God love me more than I can possibly imagine, He has given me the ability to love me too, and I accept that I am made in His image, I carry godlike character within me to help to radiate His love to the world, how amazing is that?

I still have bad days at work, but they don’t affect me like they used to because I have a peace within me that helps me to establish what matters and what doesn’t, I know that whatever the issue God will show me what to do. I don’t get angry at others or myself because He has given me The Grace to forgive, the patience to endure frustrating situations, because I don’t get so frustrated and angry anymore I don’t drink to mask those feelings, and in turn I don’t lose my temper and because I don’t lose my temper I’m no longer feeling guilty, because I don’t feel guilty I don’t dislike myself and I can see through His eyes the person He is pursuing me to be.

Each and every day I thank God for His intervention and live under His grace. We really are loved beyond our own comprehension, we can’t earn more of our Fathers love, once we have this revelation things will change, they have for me and pray they do for you too. He loved us first. Amen. 💕💕

Living with Peace and Joy.


You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever. – Psalms‬ ‭16:11‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I’m always in awe of what our good Lord does for us day by day, from the smallest of things to the big that we face He is interested in everything to do with our lives.

One day, I was rushing around first thing in the morning, as per usual. Any of you guys responsible for young children will know those mornings that are well and truly manic!

We had gone through the motions of eating breakfast, getting dressed, brushing teeth, putting on shoes, finding school bags – all of which I had to yell the instructions repeatedly at least 5 times before the task is completed! We’re finally in the car on the way to school when suddenly, I remembered my eldest was told he should take in an old sock in to make a puppet! Already running late and no time to turn back I started to panic, I’m always forgetting stuff like that and feel like the worlds worst mom, to top it off that particular day I couldn’t drop one back at school later as I was out at meetings all day.

We pulled up to the car park and I broke the news, it was received as I thought it would be, the bottom lip started to quiver and eyes began to fill up, I felt awful, thoughts running through my mind to try and make up for my error when I heard that still small voice in my spirit say “check the boot”. There underneath the shopping bags, muddy walking shoes, toys and other junk was one lonely sock!

I had been on a coat and sock collection a few weeks previous that I’d delivered to the place they needed to go and one odd sock must have escaped the bags –  Praise God!

This is such a small testimony but no less significant to how much God wants to be involved in my life. He knew I would need that sock, He knew how bad a mother I would feel, He knew how hectic the morning would be, He knew how upset my boy would be at not having one and He intervened right on time.

This is just a small example of how much I love having Jesus present in my life at all times. This is why each and every morning I ask him to intervene in all I do, I ask Him to overtake me because He knows what is planned much better than I do. I go to Him with all of my needs, I ask Him to intervene in my children’s lives, He can guide them much better than I can, He knows what they face, He knows what the plan is for them.

I live each and every day with peace in my heart, knowing that my family is taken care of and we are wrapped in His perfect love and protection to live in peace and hold joy in our hearts all of the time.

No matter what happens I’m joyful – people look on and ask “why are you so happy all the time?” The answer is I’m not happy all of the time, I’m joyful, choosing to be full of joy despite the outward circumstance, there are times I’m sad, tired and low, but the fact is I have a peace inside of me that no matter what I know everything is going to be ok.

 

Why do you have faith?

Someone once asked me how I can believe in God when the world is so messed up, this is why I do!

One of my characteristics is positivity,  I’m always looking on the bright side of life and I love to encourage others when I’m around someone that’s negative it has a tendency to frustrate me!

One day a conversation arose with a lady who was struggling one day to understand death and morbidity in the world, she said to me “If God so loves us, why do we have to see all this pain and suffering in the world?”

My answer to that is simple. 

We have faith, we believe in the unseen, we know that we are loved and made with great purpose despite what is going on in the world around us. The Bible tells us we are in the world not of the world, Jesus told us it wouldn’t be easy, but what is promised to us is eternal life, not only that, John 10:10 tells us he came so that we might live a life of abundance and joy, choosing to love Jesus and accept His gift of peace despite the outward circumstances helps me to deal with anything that the world throws at me.

God so loved the world that He gave! Jesus went to the cross for our sin, He didn’t just die, He was tortured, and He took the burden of all of our sin, how can I repay Him for that sacrifice?

Well, I can repay Him by accepting this gift. You wouldn’t receive a birthday present and leave it in it’s pretty wrapping paper, would you?

I’m going to take this gift with both hands, live my life boldly, courageously and tell everyone the good news, no matter what is happening in the world, having the peace of Jesus will pull us through it, and I don’t care who thinks I’m bonkers, hopefully, the way I live my life will help them to see just how much they need Jesus in theirs!