But I don’t want to!!! 

What do you do when you know something is right, but that means you have to do something you don’t want to?

Last week hubby and I were having a little disagreement, it was really silly, like most arguments it had started from nothing, we were arguing the same point but from our own perspectives, the devil had a field day with finger pointing and accusations. I had taken something that hubby had said and listened to that negative voice and turned it into something it just wasn’t, I was being defensive and very angry!

The trouble was I thought I was right, and I had no need whatsoever to apologise when in actual fact I was wrong! I wasn’t wrong because the point I had raised was wrong, I was wrong because I’d let into the enemy and lost my self-control, I had lost the ability to look at what my husband was saying from his perspective and as a result I was sitting in my room with a face like the little girl in the picture above!

I love how kind, forgiving and nurturing God is in these situations, I prayed about it and my prayer went something like:

Lord, Please let him see how unreasonable he is being, I can’t believe he thinks I need to do more, how much more can I do?! Please tell him to stop being so bossy…. blah blah blah.

Following my prayer I had a chapter of the Bible come to mind, Proverbs 21,

1- In the Lord’s hand, the king’s heart is a stream of water that he channels to all that please him.

2 – A person may think that their own ways are right, but the Lord weighs the heart.

3 – To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.

4 – Haughty eyes and a proud hear – the unplowed fields of the wicked – produce sin.

5- The plans of the dilligent lead to profit as surely as haste leads to poverty.

I’m thinking here, yes Lord, this is exactly what I am trying to say! You know I’m right and you are confirming to me that I am! Then ………. my eyes jumped forward a couple of verses to 9:

Better to live on a corner of the roof than share a house with a quarrelsome wife.

See, we were both right in our own minds, we both see things differently, He made us both unique to our purpose, life would be pretty boring if we were, all the same, wouldn’t it?

God wants us both to take our views and work together in harmony, Colossians 2:2 says;

My goal is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ.

We have the strength to do this by His Grace, through His Spirit we can walk the way He asks us to, but of course, this does mean that we must deny ourselves, reserve our judgements and trust His course of action, which at this time meant that I was to get up and go downstairs to apologise for losing my patience, being quick to anger and not using my self-control! Thankfully, we had a visitor which meant there was time to calm down, relax and take some time before I approached the dreaded task! Once I was willing God started to intervene and His Grace meant that this task would be a little less daunting, He always works things out for our good.

Our visitor left and I made us some lunch ready to sit down again and discuss things like adults, as it happened by God’s mercy for my willing heart He had also been doing a work in hubby, he also felt he should apologise, so we both said our “sorry” kissed and made up, then went on to discuss our business in a fashion that pleases God, which I am pleased to say worked out all around and we are back on track.

Will we argue about it again? Of course we will, but God will again patiently work through with us what to do in order to put things right, He is patient, He is loving, He wants the best for His children and He will do this 7 x 7 times, meaning to infinity because He wants us to live life in abundance, with His peace, His joy to radiate love to one another.

 

 

 

 

Walking in alignment with God.

Over the last six to seven months, many things have been manifesting in our family life, things that have been a real challenge, we had some big decisions to make, and if I’m honest I could have quite happily remained paralysed on occasions, stuck in the same old, the fear was just too much to face.

walking-inOver the last six to seven months, many things have been manifesting in our family life, things that have been a real challenge, we had some big decisions to make, and if I’m honest I could have quite happily remained paralysed on occasions, stuck in the same old, the fear was just too much to face.

Lucky for us we have a God that will deal with our fears head on when we seek His perfect Will for our lives.

Knowing there were changes to make we started to pray over the situations causing the challenges, we prayed long and hard for what seemed like forever! There were times I thought God wasn’t listening, there were times I thought He didn’t like me much, there were many moments I prayed with what my mom might call attitude, you know the stance – when your arms are folded, your bottom lip is sticking out and you have that tone in voice, the tone that says, I know you don’t want to answer my prayer and I know it’s for my own good but all the same I’m asking anyway, with an eye roll and a big TUT at the end?!

Despite sometimes wanting to give up we continued.

After around 5 months, we started to get answers, albeit they weren’t the ones we thought we would get. These answers were going to push us out of our comfort zone and were to have us confront fears we had carried with us most of our lives. In actual fact these answers had been there for some time, we just didn’t think they were from God, they seemed to make perfect sense but we thought they were of the flesh not of God. He was showing us that we had done the right thing and He wanted the best for us, He loved us and wanted us to flourish for the glory of His Kingdom.

I thought that a lot of the complications we had were a result of our own flesh and bad attitude, I thought that I had a hardened heart and it was my actions causing all of this discomfort. As a result, I was asking God to help me to change, when in actual fact what God wanted to do was to change the situation for us. Although this wasn’t going to be easy. It meant we had to do some things that would cause some discomfort, face our fears and be courageous.

One of the problems I’ve always had is thinking badly of myself, always blaming myself for things that go wrong, never really giving myself a break. Thankfully God doesn’t want that, he wants us to love ourselves just as he loves us. We are fearfully and wonderfully made, in His image, for a very unique purpose to bring glory to His Kingdom. This, in turn, gives us the ability to love others with His wonderful love and encouragement, and when we really seek His will for our lives He uncovers some miraculous things for our future, things we least expect – But, we have to action them.

Even though this time was tough and I could have quite easily turned my back on God, buried my head in the sand and left myself wide open for the enemy to take control, I chose to take back His territory and declare that in Jesus name I would walk on – No matter what!

Things can be hard, but as long as we continue to lean on our Father and rely not upon our own understanding all things will come together for good, no matter how awful it may seem we must trust him in all we do.

I’m very happy to report that is all now behind us and these situations are now testimonies we can use to encourage others as well as ourselves, we can hold on to them for the rest of our days and remind ourselves when struggles arise that He came through and took control, showed us what to do, and in our obedience, He has richly blessed us with many things to confirm we did the right thing.

Thank you, Lord, for your wonderful patience and understanding, Father, thank you, that despite our not listening, You always persevere and show us in your loving gentle way that all will be ok. Thank you, for always being there, and preparing the way for us despite our shortcomings and our disobedience, Lord thank you, for always waiting with your arms wide open for us to arrive, no matter how long that may take. In Jesus name, I pray that we will forever be aligned to your perfect will. Amen.

Perfect Love. 


The flight was delayed 6 hours, the door to the plane was frozen shut, in the UK with quite a bit of snow to look forward to.

I wasn’t looking forward to going home. Having spent from 26th December until this day in the beautiful hot sunshine, surrounded by Gods breathtaking sights, sea, sand and lots of lovely reading material.

Little did I know … God, had something much better planned in the big freeze back home.

I arrived home early in the morning and the place was thick with snow, the drive back from the airport took forever, I walked into my 2 bed townhouse that I shared with my friend, the house was hotter than it had been in Dominican, my housemate was a big fan of 30 degrees on the heating thermostat!

After lots of visiting family and storytelling of my adventures, that night I was due to meet my destiny. This meeting was a perfect plan that I had no idea about.

It was a God appointment.

Back in November, I had moved back to my hometown, following a rough few years away. The street that I had moved into also was the home of someone God wanted me to meet… again. Someone that I had no idea would impact my life as he did.

On 10th January 2010, I was reluctantly going on a date! A date that had been arranged following a phone call made on New Year’s Eve, a call that my spirit had prompted me to make, from thousands of miles away and a 4 hour time difference!

The guy that I was meeting was someone I had known for some time, 10 years to be precise, we had met when I was 17, he used to hang around me a lot back then and I had no idea that he liked me. In between then and now life happened and had been pretty cruel too.

But, God still had a perfect plan to unfold.

Following that date night, we went on to have a huge impact on each other’s lives, we built one another up, and together we became people that previously we had only ever dreamed we could be!

We have just celebrated 7 years together and I’m happy to say we have a lovely life, with 2 boys, another on the way, work that we both love doing, some wonderful friends and family around us and a beautiful home.

This scripture is a perfect description of the plan that God had for us.

That day, He evolved something quite magical, from 2 people that prior to this appointment were filled with misery, sin and fear.

He united us with the knowledge that were made for one another. 

We love each other dearly and have Jesus at the centre of our marriage which makes it perfect in every way. Together we have no fear, we have perfect love. 💕💕

1 John 4:18 – There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love. 



💕💕💕🙏 Amen 🙏💕💕💕